Why I will not find my significant other:
I know those of you who follow me know I usually post music and music related photos and occasional video game content, but I just wanted to share my thought on the reason why I personally, will not end up finding my significant other, or perhaps will find her, but ruin it. A few years ago I was in a relationship with someone that we’ll just call Satan; yes have a laugh. Anyways, my time with said individual was not bad during that time until a while after it was over, and I realized that I was being who I wanted, and not changing for what she wanted me to be, telling me how to act, saying what’s “normal” and “weird” and it wasn’t anything truly weird even which made it absurd, considering that a lot of people i know did some of the same crap and acted the same way with people. Anyways, I realized afterwards, after all the pain, and after the heartache, that I had a new mantra, “0% Bullshit tolerance.” Meaning, the second that any bit of drama, or ridiculous nonsense tried to pull me into the situation, I would remove myself. I would not, WILL not give myself to anyone who wants me and thinks that’s a free pass to just use me as a fucking trophy to anybody else, or to just include me in their shit when it doesn’t concern me, and then leave me, or cheat on me when they realize that there’s “someone better.” Yes I understand relationships have drama and you need to be part of your others life to an extent, but that’s the thing, I have no patients for it, especially when I always assume that every relationship I have will always end, because of my lack of faith in moral character of other human beings.. Other than my lack of patients for bullshit, and heart-break after going through so much with someone, I also am terrified of losing someone, or not feeling good enough. I’ll be honest, I’m not fucking Channing Tatum material in the slightest. I’m a gamer, and a musician, and a critical thinker. So to me, it is perfectly reasonable to feel threatened by every other guy out there in the world, especially when so many of them would be willing to do anything to steal your girlfriend from you if she was attractive enough to them. Those assholes, are the reason why I refuse to put myself in that situation. I am NOT what any woman desires believe me, but I also can’t help but NOT CARE at the same time, because I know I will not find someone if that is the case. Bullshit, Drama, Not being good enough to ANY WOMAN because there is ALWAYS a more masculine guy who comes to wreck what you have going, and even not feeling successful, talented, or wealthy enough to be with someone, are the reasons why I will NEVER be desirable as a man, and will spend my life alone, with only my ideas and the ability to focus on material success, because there is no other success that is possible to achieve that is valued in a world where only the rich are cared about. And to clarify, I am not a fedora wearing, “gentlemen”, reddit addicted friendzoned loser who just whines because he doesn’t get to have sex with every girl he talks to; no that is NOT me in the slightest. This is a real problem I have, and a real disadvantage I deal with, in a world where women, at least the 99% I have come in contact with and noticed, only find a guy attractive if he is fucking model material, has money, or plays sports excessively. Cheers to living alone with only having to focus on obtaining wealth and dying with your legacy only known to a few, with no one to carrying on your name.